Progress
I’ve traveled, I’ve changed, the distance is strange
I’m different, I’m new, I’m old, I’m true
I don’t front or care, tearing hair is rare
I’m happy and free, a more confident me
But I trip and I fall and from the corner of my eye I catch a glimpse of your face and my skin melts off my bones and I feel alone and hot hot hot and please smile or give me hope please don’t leave me to float in the loss and pain of being not good enough
Because I want you and I know that you know
And we can talk circles about your girls and we can argue and chill and I’ll worry you’re mad and you won’t worry at all
And no matter how many miles I’ve put between us and how many smiles I wear, sincere- or pretend (just for you) and no matter how much I look at your body, dismissed by society, or your misdeeds, which practically drained the blood from my veins, or your insane ability to completely resist me when I would absolutely knock down KINGDOMS for you
I still want you and you still know it
Even if I try not to show it
No matter how far I come, you can stop me in my tracks
But this time, this year, you won’t pull me back
